this is what i'm trying to focus on today.
do you ever lose your temper and say some things that you didn't exactly mean and go back to try to make it right, but the other person isn't even at all interested in what you have to say? that they could care less and you know it? so, it seems like this never ending cycle of negativity that you don't know how to change? even if you do try and be loving and kind they just only care about themselves and no one else?
i'm having one of those days and they are always the pits. then, even the people who haven't done anything wrong are caught in the cross hairs of your bad mood. as wrong as it is, sometimes you just need to be upset. upset because you're worried that some people seem to come into this world with a stubborn and willful spirit that seems really hard to deal with and they might never change. because the world is full of people who have yet to figure out how to get along with others and it just might happen that i might be responsible for raising one of them.
and that's almost unbearable.
~tiff
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Oh you spoke my own heart to me today! And now I'm all teary eyed and emotional. I yelled at one of my children last night. One of the two that get the most mileage out of my run down mother's heart. I felt bad, really bad. I stopped being the grownup and said things that I regret.
And I hate it. I poured my heart out in my prayers because on one hand, I don't ever want to be that mother. But on the other hand, I don't know what to do with the willful children that I have been blessed with. And I NEED God to help me. Because I am not doing a very good job on my own.
Thanks for being honest today. I needed to know that someone else struggles with this.
we all go through this. i feels like a vicious cycle. remember His mercies are new every morning. have a great day, friend. xo
Hey Tif. I completely understand your frustration. I could feel your stress while talking on the phone with you the other day. I got off the phone thinking I feel for her. I guess it's true when they say stay calm and carry on. I love you and hope that things get better. He really is a good kid.
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